On this blog in the past four years, I have spoke often about how impermanent life can be, and how quickly it can change.
This is one of those posts.
This past Friday night, Parrish’s Dad, Mike, passed away.
It was sudden. Unexpected. And after everything we went through this past spring, the month we spent watching him get stronger in the hospital, it feels confusing.
But if there is one thing that I never question, it is that God knows the plan. He does not make mistakes, and so it is with this truth that I search out my own.
I can easily find shadows of the plan in the past few months, in the way that Mike was able to visit so many family members and dear friends. That Mike wasn’t in the hospital or hooked up to a machine, which I know he wouldn’t want. He was at home; exactly where he would have wanted to be. And that things were not left unsaid. These are the tiny understandings that are helping me build up the foundation for Parrish.
Watching a loved one lose their parent can be painful, and watching a son lose his father is nearly unbearable.
But Parrish a strong man, and Mike had a big part in that.
And it is in times of sadness, that amazing things can happen.
It is in times of sadness, that you can realize how truly and deeply you are loved.Parrish and I have been overwhelmed by the generosity of family and friends. We have been supported and carried on this path.
But what we have also seen is how deeply loved Mike is, and that is solely because of what a good man he was. Strangers come out of the past, with nothing but fond memories and stories of how Mike helped them through a hard time.
These instances of love. Appreciating those you have and understanding the magnitude of those you now have watching your back in heaven, these are the instances of overwhelming happiness in our time of sorrow.
Writing this post has been the hardest thing I have ever written, but at the same time, it’s important to me, that you – dear reader and friend – know my life. And from my life I hope you can understand the impermanence of life and the importance of knowing you are loved.